Me vs Me
Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of self-reflecting. In my life, I find that whenever I’m going through a big transition I always try to take time to look within myself. I think it’s my mind’s way of trying to make sense of everything. After graduation and even currently, I’ve been spending a lot of time by myself. I LOVE IT. Most people don’t know this but as I’ve gotten older I have become more of an introvert than an extrovert. People are always surprised because I seem to be very outgoing but in all honesty, I have a limited social battery. Going out is fun but when I’m ready to go, I go. I come home, take my shower, watch my shows or read, and sleep in my own bed at my own house. I truly value my time by myself.
I think sometimes people are afraid to sit with themselves and their thoughts alone because of the emotions and realizations that might arise. Out of everything in this world, coming to terms with our decisions can be the scariest thing we ever do. Quick question. Do you like where you are right now? It’s perfectly fine to say yes but it’s also ok to say no. The most important thing is to be honest with yourself.
If you would’ve told me four years ago that I was going to UVA to study foreign affairs, I’d look at you strangely. I never imagined myself in this space. For the first time in my life, I don’t have any real expectations and I think that’s wonderful. Instead of over-planning I’m letting myself breathe and experience it in real time. So far, it’s been working out for me.
Bringing more peace into your life is not always easy. Contrary to what we see on social media being at peace and understanding yourself doesn’t require you to be rich, on an organic diet, a member of an expensive gym, or being in platonic or romantic relationships. True peace and understanding comes from looking within yourself and working on building healthy habits a little each day. Of course, I don’t have all the answers. I mean who knows maybe when I date then marry that very wealthy European soccer player I’ll come back in my Vogue article and say, “It was all a lie guys, now that I’m rich and famous all my problems are solved. I never worry about anything.” I doubt it though. Always remember to be kind to yourself.
Take Care,
Claire
